#186: On Writing Retreat

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On Writing Retreat,
December 5, 2015, L. L. Stub Stewart State Park, Buxton, Oregon

It’s raining so hard here,
it would be unthinkable
to go outside for a walk.
So I am stuck in this cabin
without internet access
and there’s only a few
things to do: listen to
music, meditate, read,
eat, or, the thing that I
have come here intentionally
to do, write. I am writing.
I will break now and then
to listen, breathe, read
from the one book I brought,
Labyrinths by Borges,
grab a bite to eat, and at
night, I will drink some
wine and write straight
through until I can’t do it
anymore. There’s no one
to talk to. My neighbors
in other cabins stick to
themselves and I rarely
see them. I am happy to
be able to stand myself,
to be in my own company
and not feel bereft or alone.
That’s a good sign, I think.
And on retreat I find
the necessary and absolute
lack of distraction and
freedom from responsibility
to be the crucial
ingredients that make it
possible for me to really
come to the page, to be
present with language
and thought in a way I can
never be or rarely be
in the routine of the
day to day. So here,
on a cliff that looks out
on to the mountain range
that separates the Willamette
Valley from the Oregon Coast,
in Buxton (a town in my
own state I never knew existed),
half way between Banks and
Vernonia, I forget about the
difficulty of getting here, and
I write about work,
I look into my new novel,
plan a course of reentry after
a months-long absence,
and I write this poem
in praise of solitude, in
thankfulness to my beloved
who made it possible,
and in wonder at having
another 24 new hours
to myself .

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4 Comments

Filed under Literature, Poetry, Writing and Reading

4 responses to “#186: On Writing Retreat

  1. WOW! Sounds like heaven, all of it. Cabin. Oregon. Writing. Alone. Yes, heaven! Enjoy the time. Tell me, what are the sets of glass lenses all attached? Are the magnifying glasses?

    • Thanks for the note, Lorien. Yes, it was heavenly. Those glasses around the hat are purely decor–they have no useful function whatsoever other than as an accessory to the hat. But they sure do look cool!

      • Haha they do look cool. Into steam punk are we? 😄 I saw some people in steam punk get up at the Maryland Renaissance Festival in October. Pretty involved costumes. And yes they looked really cool too!

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